This has kind of been a shitty week for many reasons. First, I got an email on my personal email from someone who is very close to me that said they will read my blog, but won't follow it because I put to much personal information on here. My response to that is that I really don't. My blog is going to read like a journal entry. It is completely different from my book. My book will be matter of fact and I will be telling the story. My blog is how I feel and what is going through my head. To some it might seem like I am crazy to me it is an outlet to express how I am doing on the journey to write my book. Sometimes what I have to say isn't about hearts and rainbows. Sometimes things are just shitty. It doesn't mean I am not happy it just means I am human. I won't sugar coat anything that I am feeling on here, but I won't ever put anyone's name on my blog to hurt or embarrass them in any way.
Once again it is no wonder I hang out with boys all the time because women can be so fucking ruthless. They think they can say and do anything to other women. The best thing about hanging out with a bunch of boys they generally don't have an expectation. If they get pissed they get over it in either 5 minutes or just punch the person they are mad at and its over. Not women they have to play out the drama for days and days. Get 10 other women involved and never get over it. I have just decided that I don't have the time for it anymore.
If that isn't enough for the week, my aunt who I haven't talked to for years is now asking my mother for info about me. I cut her out of my life when I cut my dad out. She is his sister and I found no reason to be tortured by these people anymore. She thinks it is my fault for what happened with my dad. What is interesting about that is I was a kid and my dad was abusive.
Next week has to be a step up from this one. If not I will just stay home on my free time and write. Olive (my cat) doesn't bring me any drama!! lol
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