Fuck Clearly Wasn't The Right Choice

As I said before I don't believe in New Years Resolutions. If I need to fix something I need to fix it. I shouldn't wait. I realize as human beings that we always need to better ourselves. I said in the post before this one I wanted to stop saying "fuck" so much. Forget it...I can't do it.lol At one minute after the new year rang in I looked at my very drunk friend and said "you are a drunk mess you need to fucking go home." I have been drunk plenty of times, but this was another level. So, I will continue to work on not drinking soda and training for the triathlon. Fuck is back in my vocabulary. lol

I am going to switch gears and share something that is a little more serious. I probably should have made this a different post. I have been reading a lot of posts on FB and other people's blogs and just in general listening to people. It is sad to listen to all the unhappy people. I don't mean that in a rude way, but there are a lot of unhappy people out there. I guess I am really lucky because I am normally pretty happy. I have my struggles every day like everyone, but over all I wake up looking forward to life. Even people I consider very close to me that post that they want to be happy in 2010. I sometimes think either I am living in denial or not in touch with reality or something. I am happy and it is hard to see how many people are not. I think one of the reasons that I am happy is because I had a horrible relationship in my life for about 4 years and I was always worried about the other person's needs and always put myself last. Well, through the course of some very difficult circumstances and decisions I cut that person out of my life. I then took care of myself and put my needs first. I know that might sound incredibly selfish, but we have only one chance at this life thing and I want to enjoy it. I do care about my close personal friends and relationships and I would do anything for them. I am just at a point in my life that I will not allow people who are full of drama and bitterness around me. I would never turn my back on my loved one's either if they were going through a hard time. It is a fine balance.

I also have to say thanks to my supporters of my book and blog. I hope that 2010 is happy for you. As crazy as this year is going to be for me I don't take it lightly that you support me.