It has been few days since I have been on here, but I am so happy I am going to California for a few days. I always get excited to go to California. I get to work with some of the smartest people I have ever met. I love the feeling of leaving knowing that I learned something. I wouldn't say that it is a mentor/student thing. It is more like a group of peers that want to see this book succeed. I feel like I am one lucky person to have these amazing people in my life.
I have met some very interesting people in Chicago in the last week and appreciate the great conversation that came out of meeting them. I felt I got even more inspired to keep writing and make an even better book. I never realized how many people come from crazy religious backgrounds. I love sharing stories and experiences. I have really tried to open my mind when I have a conversation to realize that everyone has a story. Those stories really define who we are and where we are going.
I am so excited to work on the book, but I am also excited to get out of this freezing weather. I can't stand the winter weather. I know there is not a heat wave, but 70 degrees is better than 18 degrees. I am looking forward to posting what I learn and experience while I am in Los Angeles. I am sure there will be some great stories. I will take a few pics this time since I didn't take any last time. Chat with you all soon.
January 26, 2010
January 20, 2010
Let's Skip The Date And Just Have Sex
First, I have to say that this blog title came from my friend Michael after hours of laughter over our horrible dating experiences. I won't share names of those we dated or those who never even made it that far. Let's face it dating sucks and people act like they are someone they aren't on a date or they act like they are from another planet.
I guess what really started me thinking about how much I hate dating is when I started talking about a blind date I was set up on. I realized from that moment on I could live the rest of my life without going on another date. Just to clarify I did not say I didn't want to be in a relationship this post is only about dating. There is a huge difference. So, back to the blind date... my friend at the time said she had the perfect guy for me so I thought what the hell. I wasn't "dating" anyone at the time so I said ok. Since, I had never met the person in my life we decided to go on a double date. The 3 of them were already friends so they came to my place to pick me up. I know this is going to sound caddy, they arrived at my door and I was like ok this is interesting. Not really my type physically, but I will give it a try. So, we decided to go to a bar in my neighborhood before dinner. Not only was he not really my cup of tea. He was probably one of the most boring and hard to talk to people I have ever met. I had to make a decision at that point of what to do. It was a little late to fake an illness so I decided I would get as drunk as possible hoping that it would just go better. Well, not so much I was drunk alright. We left the bar to go to dinner. I walk out into the street and get hit by a cab. I probably would have been hurt really bad had it not been for all the cocktails. lol It wasn't what I had in mind for getting out of the date, but it sure as shit worked. Mark my word that will be my first and last blind date I will ever go on.
There is so much more about dating that is horrible. What about the people that you go on a date with that seem perfectly normal at first. You go on a couple of dates then they think that they need to call or text you every 5 minutes. I'm not really into stalkers after 2 dates.
I also appreciate going on dates with people that seem perfectly normal and once you are at dinner and show any interest they find the need to tell you that they are in love with you and you haven't even ordered your drink or appetizer. Please, what the fuck is wrong with people. There is another extreme to that, what about the people who ask you to "hang out" or go to dinner who already had multiple partners at home that didn't know that they were asking people out on dates.
I'm not sure why dating needs to be so stupid. I compare stories with people and I am not the only one. I think dating should be fun. I have been bringing up this subject on occasion just to get other people's take on dating and I have heard some crazy dating stories. It seems like dating has turned into a mess. What ever happened to going out and having a good time.
My favorite reaction to the whole dating thing was Michael. He didn't seem to like dating any more than me. His philosophy simple... "Let's skip the date and just have sex." haha!!
I guess what really started me thinking about how much I hate dating is when I started talking about a blind date I was set up on. I realized from that moment on I could live the rest of my life without going on another date. Just to clarify I did not say I didn't want to be in a relationship this post is only about dating. There is a huge difference. So, back to the blind date... my friend at the time said she had the perfect guy for me so I thought what the hell. I wasn't "dating" anyone at the time so I said ok. Since, I had never met the person in my life we decided to go on a double date. The 3 of them were already friends so they came to my place to pick me up. I know this is going to sound caddy, they arrived at my door and I was like ok this is interesting. Not really my type physically, but I will give it a try. So, we decided to go to a bar in my neighborhood before dinner. Not only was he not really my cup of tea. He was probably one of the most boring and hard to talk to people I have ever met. I had to make a decision at that point of what to do. It was a little late to fake an illness so I decided I would get as drunk as possible hoping that it would just go better. Well, not so much I was drunk alright. We left the bar to go to dinner. I walk out into the street and get hit by a cab. I probably would have been hurt really bad had it not been for all the cocktails. lol It wasn't what I had in mind for getting out of the date, but it sure as shit worked. Mark my word that will be my first and last blind date I will ever go on.
There is so much more about dating that is horrible. What about the people that you go on a date with that seem perfectly normal at first. You go on a couple of dates then they think that they need to call or text you every 5 minutes. I'm not really into stalkers after 2 dates.
I also appreciate going on dates with people that seem perfectly normal and once you are at dinner and show any interest they find the need to tell you that they are in love with you and you haven't even ordered your drink or appetizer. Please, what the fuck is wrong with people. There is another extreme to that, what about the people who ask you to "hang out" or go to dinner who already had multiple partners at home that didn't know that they were asking people out on dates.
I'm not sure why dating needs to be so stupid. I compare stories with people and I am not the only one. I think dating should be fun. I have been bringing up this subject on occasion just to get other people's take on dating and I have heard some crazy dating stories. It seems like dating has turned into a mess. What ever happened to going out and having a good time.
My favorite reaction to the whole dating thing was Michael. He didn't seem to like dating any more than me. His philosophy simple... "Let's skip the date and just have sex." haha!!
January 17, 2010
Slut Or Cunt...
There are a couple of words that we use all the time. Well, if you have a foul mouth like me you do. I find both the word slut and cunt very interesting. I have my thoughts and views on both words. I often find them very funny and yes I have been called both. I also use both words.
First, what is slut? Why is it usually only a word used toward a woman? Is it bad to be a slut? The best definition of a slut is someone who is sexually promiscuous. Typically referring to women. I have stated many times before that I think women can be ruthless bitches and by no means is this post because I am some feminist that think only women rule the world. I think there is a need for both sexes, and frankly the world boring without men. Women are considered sluts if they sleep around and men are considered cool. What? Women are sluts if there clothes are too tight and skirts are too short and men are just considered to have made a bad wardrobe choice. What the fuck? Sluts are sluts... if you are sexually promiscuous you are sexually promiscuous. It doesn't matter if you have a penis or a vagina. Is it bad to be a slut? Who decides what is right or wrong anyway? Who decides what moral compass we should follow? I think those are just rhetorical questions I have been asking myself lately. The questions are probably less about being a slut and more about who makes the rules we follow sexually. Is it the church we belong to (just to clarify I do not belong to a church), our parents, god, our friends that decide the morals we follow? I frankly believe our morals come from a combination of all or some of the above. I also want to point out that I am not suggesting to go out and be crazy and have unprotected sex. I think everything should be safe. I am saying that I think a lot of who we are is decided by other people's values. What makes their values right for you or me?
Now, I am going to talk about the word cunt! As one have my favorite gay boys said "cunts are nasty." lol I am not saying that they are but it is another word used toward woman in a negative way. I wonder again if guys can be cunts. I realize the true definition of a cunt is referring to a woman's genitalia. Now, with that alone it probably shouldn't be used toward men. In the everyday world we use it to say that someone is being more than just a bitch. Now, I know a lot guys and yes they can be cunts as well. I actually hate the word, but sometimes it is the best description for people that are rude ignorant assholes. I know when I am really pissed at another woman I will use the word cunt and you know that it is serious business. I am not saying it is right I am saying it just gets the point across. It is like a secret code when a woman says it to another woman to "back the fuck up bitch" by just using one word. I have decided that I am going to just start saying asshole when I am pissed and not worry about the gender of the person. lol
First, what is slut? Why is it usually only a word used toward a woman? Is it bad to be a slut? The best definition of a slut is someone who is sexually promiscuous. Typically referring to women. I have stated many times before that I think women can be ruthless bitches and by no means is this post because I am some feminist that think only women rule the world. I think there is a need for both sexes, and frankly the world boring without men. Women are considered sluts if they sleep around and men are considered cool. What? Women are sluts if there clothes are too tight and skirts are too short and men are just considered to have made a bad wardrobe choice. What the fuck? Sluts are sluts... if you are sexually promiscuous you are sexually promiscuous. It doesn't matter if you have a penis or a vagina. Is it bad to be a slut? Who decides what is right or wrong anyway? Who decides what moral compass we should follow? I think those are just rhetorical questions I have been asking myself lately. The questions are probably less about being a slut and more about who makes the rules we follow sexually. Is it the church we belong to (just to clarify I do not belong to a church), our parents, god, our friends that decide the morals we follow? I frankly believe our morals come from a combination of all or some of the above. I also want to point out that I am not suggesting to go out and be crazy and have unprotected sex. I think everything should be safe. I am saying that I think a lot of who we are is decided by other people's values. What makes their values right for you or me?
Now, I am going to talk about the word cunt! As one have my favorite gay boys said "cunts are nasty." lol I am not saying that they are but it is another word used toward woman in a negative way. I wonder again if guys can be cunts. I realize the true definition of a cunt is referring to a woman's genitalia. Now, with that alone it probably shouldn't be used toward men. In the everyday world we use it to say that someone is being more than just a bitch. Now, I know a lot guys and yes they can be cunts as well. I actually hate the word, but sometimes it is the best description for people that are rude ignorant assholes. I know when I am really pissed at another woman I will use the word cunt and you know that it is serious business. I am not saying it is right I am saying it just gets the point across. It is like a secret code when a woman says it to another woman to "back the fuck up bitch" by just using one word. I have decided that I am going to just start saying asshole when I am pissed and not worry about the gender of the person. lol
January 8, 2010
You Need To Take Them For A Test Ride Before You Pick The Right Model
Get your mind out of the gutter. For once am not talking about a penis. I am actually talking about the bike I want for the triathlon. I think I have the expensive beauty all picked out. I just have to wait until the weather gets better and take my top 3 choices out for a test ride. I never realized how many styles of bikes that are out there. The colors alone are too much. I think a pretty pink bike with a basket in the front would be great. Just kidding, I will probably just get a black bike.
I haven't really shared much about my trip home at Christmas, but a couple of funny things happened. First, my mom bought me new cookware. That seems like a nice gift right? I love the gift, but cooking not so much. It isn't that I can't cook. I just don't enjoy it. It seems like a big mess for 15 minutes of enjoyment that leads to another mess. I live in a really small apartment and I think I will pass. My mom asked me yesterday if I enjoyed my new cookware and my response was I will let you know when you visit me and cook something.
I also got a lot of new computer equipment for xmas. I actually really needed it to make the book process go even better. I got a new web cam and it is still in the package. I think I am possibly I little scared to install it to my computer. The reason I got it is because after I get back from California I will have a weekly video conference with the ghost writer and editor. I keep getting asked if the web cam is going to lead to a new career and more chapters in the book. Maybe that is my fear. Who knows, but it is still in the package three weeks later. It is really nice to. That is the perks of having a sister and brother-in-law that own a computer store. I think having my mom ask me everyday if she is going to see my naked ass on the Internet is what is keeping me from even dealing with it. lol
Just a couple of weeks and I will be Los Angeles doing what I love. Working on my book. I am at a very happy point in my life. I couldn't ask for anything else. Of course, I don't want to stop growing as a person. I am just really enjoying the whole adventure. It really is an adventure.
I haven't really shared much about my trip home at Christmas, but a couple of funny things happened. First, my mom bought me new cookware. That seems like a nice gift right? I love the gift, but cooking not so much. It isn't that I can't cook. I just don't enjoy it. It seems like a big mess for 15 minutes of enjoyment that leads to another mess. I live in a really small apartment and I think I will pass. My mom asked me yesterday if I enjoyed my new cookware and my response was I will let you know when you visit me and cook something.
I also got a lot of new computer equipment for xmas. I actually really needed it to make the book process go even better. I got a new web cam and it is still in the package. I think I am possibly I little scared to install it to my computer. The reason I got it is because after I get back from California I will have a weekly video conference with the ghost writer and editor. I keep getting asked if the web cam is going to lead to a new career and more chapters in the book. Maybe that is my fear. Who knows, but it is still in the package three weeks later. It is really nice to. That is the perks of having a sister and brother-in-law that own a computer store. I think having my mom ask me everyday if she is going to see my naked ass on the Internet is what is keeping me from even dealing with it. lol
Just a couple of weeks and I will be Los Angeles doing what I love. Working on my book. I am at a very happy point in my life. I couldn't ask for anything else. Of course, I don't want to stop growing as a person. I am just really enjoying the whole adventure. It really is an adventure.
January 6, 2010
You Walk With The Lord I Walk With My Friends To The Strip Club
Sometimes the people we encounter are very interesting that make you think. I recently had a conversation with someone about my blog and this person mentioned that my blog is a bit controversial. At first I thought that wasn't true. I thought I am really kind of boring and just live my life. Then I thought about it a little more and I do talk about things that are kind of cliche' and "forbidden" to talk about.
I have decided from the beginning of the entire book writing process that I would be true to myself and talk about what I want. I also know people might think that makes me a bit crazy. Aren't we all a little crazy anyway? I have found a couple of my friends aren't really that supportive of me just putting stuff out there and not wanting me to push the limits. I think there is some confusion. My whole book pushes the limit. The book is going to be brilliant when it is finished. The blog is different it is an outlet to share my thoughts, get ideas, and just keep it real.
I have a particular friend who thinks that I should apologize for who I am and what my book is about. I won't do that. That is the funny part about people they think they live such a better life and really all they do is judge and look down on other people. I will not now or ever apologize for who I am and what I did in the past or what I am doing now.
My book will talk about god, religion, sex, heart break, and many other things that people think are off limits. I will never live my life thinking that things are off limits. I spent too many years brainwashed and god crazy so now that I realize the world actually exists I will talk about whatever I want. That may seem cocky it really just means I am confident. I have the right people supporting me and that is what is important. So, if you want to judge that is ok. I will continue to be true to myself. If that means me going to the strip club and talking about it then so be it. At least I don't walk around thinking I am better than I am or someone I am not. I have a full understanding of who I am.
I have decided from the beginning of the entire book writing process that I would be true to myself and talk about what I want. I also know people might think that makes me a bit crazy. Aren't we all a little crazy anyway? I have found a couple of my friends aren't really that supportive of me just putting stuff out there and not wanting me to push the limits. I think there is some confusion. My whole book pushes the limit. The book is going to be brilliant when it is finished. The blog is different it is an outlet to share my thoughts, get ideas, and just keep it real.
I have a particular friend who thinks that I should apologize for who I am and what my book is about. I won't do that. That is the funny part about people they think they live such a better life and really all they do is judge and look down on other people. I will not now or ever apologize for who I am and what I did in the past or what I am doing now.
My book will talk about god, religion, sex, heart break, and many other things that people think are off limits. I will never live my life thinking that things are off limits. I spent too many years brainwashed and god crazy so now that I realize the world actually exists I will talk about whatever I want. That may seem cocky it really just means I am confident. I have the right people supporting me and that is what is important. So, if you want to judge that is ok. I will continue to be true to myself. If that means me going to the strip club and talking about it then so be it. At least I don't walk around thinking I am better than I am or someone I am not. I have a full understanding of who I am.
January 3, 2010
Fuck Clearly Wasn't The Right Choice
As I said before I don't believe in New Years Resolutions. If I need to fix something I need to fix it. I shouldn't wait. I realize as human beings that we always need to better ourselves. I said in the post before this one I wanted to stop saying "fuck" so much. Forget it...I can't do it.lol At one minute after the new year rang in I looked at my very drunk friend and said "you are a drunk mess you need to fucking go home." I have been drunk plenty of times, but this was another level. So, I will continue to work on not drinking soda and training for the triathlon. Fuck is back in my vocabulary. lol
I am going to switch gears and share something that is a little more serious. I probably should have made this a different post. I have been reading a lot of posts on FB and other people's blogs and just in general listening to people. It is sad to listen to all the unhappy people. I don't mean that in a rude way, but there are a lot of unhappy people out there. I guess I am really lucky because I am normally pretty happy. I have my struggles every day like everyone, but over all I wake up looking forward to life. Even people I consider very close to me that post that they want to be happy in 2010. I sometimes think either I am living in denial or not in touch with reality or something. I am happy and it is hard to see how many people are not. I think one of the reasons that I am happy is because I had a horrible relationship in my life for about 4 years and I was always worried about the other person's needs and always put myself last. Well, through the course of some very difficult circumstances and decisions I cut that person out of my life. I then took care of myself and put my needs first. I know that might sound incredibly selfish, but we have only one chance at this life thing and I want to enjoy it. I do care about my close personal friends and relationships and I would do anything for them. I am just at a point in my life that I will not allow people who are full of drama and bitterness around me. I would never turn my back on my loved one's either if they were going through a hard time. It is a fine balance.
I also have to say thanks to my supporters of my book and blog. I hope that 2010 is happy for you. As crazy as this year is going to be for me I don't take it lightly that you support me.
I am going to switch gears and share something that is a little more serious. I probably should have made this a different post. I have been reading a lot of posts on FB and other people's blogs and just in general listening to people. It is sad to listen to all the unhappy people. I don't mean that in a rude way, but there are a lot of unhappy people out there. I guess I am really lucky because I am normally pretty happy. I have my struggles every day like everyone, but over all I wake up looking forward to life. Even people I consider very close to me that post that they want to be happy in 2010. I sometimes think either I am living in denial or not in touch with reality or something. I am happy and it is hard to see how many people are not. I think one of the reasons that I am happy is because I had a horrible relationship in my life for about 4 years and I was always worried about the other person's needs and always put myself last. Well, through the course of some very difficult circumstances and decisions I cut that person out of my life. I then took care of myself and put my needs first. I know that might sound incredibly selfish, but we have only one chance at this life thing and I want to enjoy it. I do care about my close personal friends and relationships and I would do anything for them. I am just at a point in my life that I will not allow people who are full of drama and bitterness around me. I would never turn my back on my loved one's either if they were going through a hard time. It is a fine balance.
I also have to say thanks to my supporters of my book and blog. I hope that 2010 is happy for you. As crazy as this year is going to be for me I don't take it lightly that you support me.
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