Is His Business Going To Hang To Low?

I think this has been a week of questions. I have been asking myself and other people a lot of them. Some of my questions are politically correct some are not. Recently, I went shopping for my best friends birthday. Now, having a guy best friend is a bit different then having a girl best friend. We really aren't that into giving each other gifts not because we don't care about each other. It is because we spend a lot of time together and that usually ends up being a lot of $ as well. I would take the great times and lots of laughs (sometimes trouble usually my fault when that happens) over gift giving any day! The past 6 months since I have had to take the book deal more serious and have traveled a lot more he has done a lot for me. He has taken care of my apartment and my kitty Olive. So, I wanted to do a little something just to say thanks. Well, the truth is that I see him mostly in his underwear because of his job so I thought that would be a good choice for a gift. Well, I went online first... damn there are more styles of mens underwear than womens. So, I walked to the store in my neighborhood that sell man panties. I walked in a little educated about what I wanted. Anyway, the sales person was very nice, but trying to sell me these absolutely horrible underwear. They were way to girly. The amount of styles was a bit overwhelming. I finally found one that I liked and I said not realizing how loud I was talking "is this one going to make his business hang too low?" Not only did the sales clerk laugh at me so did the man trying on clothes in the fitting room. At that moment I got really hot and I know that I turned bright red. I also wanted the floor to have a trap door and I wanted to fall in it. I thought my question was legitimate. It bothers me when men wear underwear that don't hold their business in place. It is sort of like a woman wearing a bra with no elastic. What's the point. So, when he wears the new underwear you all better tip him well because I embarrassed myself and can't show my face in the store ever again. I am sure I will see those people out and about and they will laugh at me.

Valentine's Day Is A Bit Much As Far As I am Concerned

Ok I know that sounds negative, but it takes a lot more than one day of the year to give a card and proclaim your love to your significant other. I also think that is just another day to throw in the faces of those who are single that they are in fact alone on another holiday.

I personally couldn't be happier in my relationship with my partner. He is a really nice guy and treats me beyond well. I guess the problem with me is that I am not a "let's talk about our feelings and emotions" girl. I have never been and at this point I probably never will. It is more or less a take it or leave it type of deal with me. I have a very few people in my life that know how I "feel", but for the most part why bother. Love to me is a simple concept and it is usually outside influences that destroy good relationships. There is always someone who thinks that they know what you should do, who you should date, or who you should be friends with. Fuck that, do what you want and love who you want is the way I see it.

I really do think valentine's day is a bit much. You really think that if you are an asshole all the time and you buy your partner a box of chocolates and a card that means you aren't an asshole anymore? Please you are still an asshole.

The Book Girl Is Getting Restless

I think this winter has taken a toll on my state of mind. I have lived in the Midwest my entire life. This winter hasn't been anything out of the ordinary, but I am just not enjoying it anymore. It seems like all I can focus on is my next trip to California or what is next. It sometimes takes those who are in my close circle of friends to pull me back in and remind me that everything will fall into place when it is suppose to. I wouldn't say it is an unhappy feeling more of I want to move on to the next phase of my life and the book isn't finished. I live my life for the most part as I have stated before as happy as possible.

I feel like I need to shake things up a little or I am going to continue to have this feeling. The last time I had this feeling I moved to Chicago and I didn't know a single person here. I am not sure if that is the answer, but I will figure it out.

A small update on the book. I have been working hard on getting things done. I have a few deadlines coming up so we will see how that goes. I am excited because I have two central characters that are going to interview me for my book. This will be a conversation more than an actual interview. It should be a lot of fun. Hopefully, it will be entertaining. Those conversations will of course be recorded and then the California team work their magic. All in all the book is going great.

Pills, Pimps, and Pole Dancers

So before I really talk about the real reason I decided to blog today, I thought I would give a brief update on my trip to California. I think if I could rate this trip on the star system...I would give it 5 out of 5 stars. The funny thing is that I was sick the entire time I was there. I left LA this time thinking we are really on to something with this book. I have been excited about this project since the beginning, but now I know that I am doing what I need to be doing. Writing is not easy for me. So, I have to be very disciplined to set time out just for the book. We spent several hours over the course of 4 days working through ideas and very detailed character descriptions. Despite the fever and horrible head cold I had the trip was a total success. Like I said before the sky is the limit!!

Now, on to the other reason that I decided to blog today. Something has been bothering me a little and I decided to just put it out there. I was out and about in the recent past and found myself feeling like I was in the twilight zone. Maybe because I was completely sober and it takes several cocktails to tolerate people anymore. It was more then being drunk. I felt like every person out that night was fucked up on some sort of drugs. I pass no judgement on any sort of drug use, but this was off the charts. To each their own, but seriously is everyone totally fucked up all the time. Even people who proclaim to never touch the stuff seemed like were so high that I couldn't imagine them getting in car and actually driving home like that.

I honestly don't care what people do. At least be responsible about it. I have been crazy drunk before and by no means is this to point the finger at anyone. I guess I just don't get it. Drunk is one thing out of your mind is another. I know people probably think this is a anti drug and alcohol message it isn't that. It is just me venting about people using their brain. People who I would say I have respect for just sucked that night! That's all!!